EXHAUSTED...
plain exhausted...

reli dun feel like going to think of anything le..perhaps wad cg said might be right... dun think too much.. go n sleep...everything will be fine tmr...
bt i cant...cos i love her too much...

come on..wad happen to me.... !!! why m i feeling all so troubled..reli feel like goin out to drunk myself..mayb i will.. (right now)...

lol... im dying...

living my last few hours...

hmmm...it has been a very very long time since i last blog...tink ard 3 months ago...
many tings happened..of cos dere r the happy ones..and the nt so happy ones...
todae im here oni to speak of the happy ones... LOL!!
okae...everybody here... reading my blog de...
i hereby declare tat...hng li lin is my lao pooo!!! haha..tink its nt ani surprises le..mani ppl noe le..hahah.. aniway..the 2 of us has been thru so much b4 we can get tgt..haha..hope we reli last long... we started on the 24th of april..and todae is 16th of may...so we r ald 23 daes married... lol...


hmm..ll...if u r here..or happen to be here...
jux wanna let u noe tat...
my heart for u will nv change...urs should nt change too.. =)
i love u my dear... =D

hmmm...it has been a very very long time since i last blog...tink ard 3 months ago...
many tings happened..of cos dere r the happy ones..and the nt so happy ones...
todae im here oni to speak of the happy ones... LOL!!
okae...everybody here... reading my blog de...
i hereby declare tat...hng li lin is my lao pooo!!! haha..tink its nt ani surprises le..mani ppl noe le..hahah.. aniway..the 2 of us has been thru so much b4 we can get tgt..haha..hope we reli last long... we started on the 24th of april..and todae is 16th of may...so we r ald 23 daes married... lol...


hmm..ll...if u r here..or happen to be here...
jux wanna let u noe tat...
my heart for u will nv change...urs should nt change too.. =)
i love u my dear... =D

17th-20th feb(daes i will rem for life)..
hmmm...its a veri veri sad dae for mi...im jux back in spore frm malaysia....
i went back on msia on fri after hearing tat my grandma is dead....
i was so shocked tat i was doubting wat my dad said over the fone..bt when my mum told mi..i bliv it...cos my mum was crying when she said tat... i can hear the sadness in her when she speak..
i took a cab with sx to cwp and walked ard b4 i went hm.. i reached hm at ard 5+ and i went out again to da pao dinner for my family so tat we cld quickly finish dinner and rush to johor to take a coach back to KL..bt in the end we still took a train...it was safer according to my cab...i and my sisters took the sitting seats while my parents took 1st class sleeping seats..quite ex de..1 seat cost 126 ringgit and both my parents taking the seats..so it cost ard 250 bucks...
we all nv reli slp veri well..our feelings our mood were bad...we were all tinking bt it...we reached kl train station at ard 715...took a little longer to reach den normal..we took a cab to my grandma's place...and we saw the funeral downstairs..we went forward..pay our respects and look at her... she does nt look like the granny i noe of... the person whu make-up for her make up till her face veri white...and she wore smth on her head...i cldnt reli recognise her...bt deep under,i still noe tat she's the beloved granny i noe of..
we went up and put our tings b4 coming down again...everyone was sad...the atmosphere was dull... we ate our breakfast...and my sisters and i and my mum took turns to burn "jing zhi" for my granny..
we sat ard talking to each others..conselling each others..my relatives told my mum nt to be sad..as mayb tis might nt be so bad afterall...cos my granny is goin for dialysis every week..twice a week i tink..and she still have to have injection b4 every meal to control the amt of sugar in her body i tink..all this sufferings...tis might seems to be a "jie tou" for her...haizzzzzz....
it was fri ard 1+..my granny was having her lunch and she went back to sit on her chair and she asked my aunt whether she can feel ani heartbeat in her nt..my aunt feel it and told my granny tat her heartbeat is beating very fast...my aunt didnt noe wad to do..and she immediately rush downstairs and went across to a shophouse opposite and called her husband..which is my uncle and asked him to come immediately...my aunt went to the shophouse and make the call because the fone in the hse was being cut off..my another uncle nv pay the bills..
after my aunt went back..within 5 mins...my granny was sitting on the chair...motionless... my aunt was scared and she went ran to balcony with my cousin and nv dared to go to the living room..when my uncle arrived..my granny ald passed away... =(
soon my uncles all arrived and tried to rescue her...1 of my uncle even beat my granny on her chest... bt didnt work...after tat tat was when my mum was informed...
dey went on with the funeral while we arrived on sat.. so we were all at the funeral for the whole dae when ard 7..the "priest" came and help to recite "jing" and we were to bow whenever he bow...tis is like to help my granny move on i bliv..soon..many frens of my relatives came..all paid their respects to my granny...the whole procedure of "da zai" took 3 hrs liddat..and ended at 10+...my sister's bf bring 2 packets of mee..the 1 i like the most..my granny oso ate everytime we went back to msia..cos oni when my family go back to msia den my uncle will buy...my mum put a few mee on a plate and my mum and i brought it over and put it on the table..i told my granny..eat mee le po po in canto..i cldnt control myself and i cried...
i tink of the times when i will always bug my uncle to go n buy everynight cos i reli liked it so much..and my granny will tell my uncle..faster go n buy la..boy boy wans to eat...i cried while i eat..im missing my grandmum......
after tat we went back upstairs and slp cos we have to be reli earli nxt dae as we have to go to the cemetry the following dae..so everyone slp earli..ard 12..we were all veri tired le..
19th feb------ everyone gathered ard 8+..mani frens came...to send my granny...our family was allowed to walk ard the coffin several times..and called her...cos dere wun be other chances which we can call her again.. we were allowed to see her for the last times b4 the coffin was closed...
after the coffin was closed..it was loaded onto the van..while everyone else followed behind..we were nt allowed to wear shoes and are oni allowed to walk on socks tat dey provide us..we walked everywhere with tat pair of socks.. when we reached the cemetry..we had pork 1st..i bliv tat during tat time the coffin was put inside the soil and sand..
cos after we had the pork..we went to the the burial grd and we were supposed to throw some soil on the coffin cover...
and we were supposed to walked off after throwing the soil without looking back..my mum told mi tat looking back is a must not..i dunno y..bt of cos i didnt look back...
after tat..we went back and the priest told us to change all our clothes..we were all wearing white den..and we must change to red shirts...
the journey back wasnt in the right atmosphere..everyone was quiet...everyone was tinking of their beloved mother and granny...
we went hm after tat...and everyone went back to their own homes and bath b4 we meet out at night to have our dinner...my 1st uncle drink until he was drunk..he even sae to my mum tat he tink tat my mum wun go back msia ..cos goin back to msia dosen reli have a purpose..cos our purpose is to visit grandma ma..bt i tink my mum wld still go back..bt mayb nt as often as she used to be lo...cos afterall..they are all her bros ma..

grandma has ald left us...bt she will still be remebered in my heart forever...for all the tings she had done...
i rem when i was young..when she came to spore..she will always bring mi downstairs and watch mi ride bicycle..she will kip saeing..dun cycle so fast..bt i kip cycle fast fast...and when i always wanted to eat mee..she will ask my uncle to go buy for mi de...and i rem...there was a yr where she gave more ang pao money for my sisters and i than my other cousins..cos she reli love us and we reli love her..
we love grandmum...

hello guys..sorry for nt updating for so long le...has been rather bz nowadaes..!!bz goin to bai nian..hahah..aniway..though im late..bt i still have to sae it..happy new yr everyone!!!hope everything goes well for all of u... =)))
hmm..went quite alot of place to bai nian tis new yr..1st dae and eve went to my god-parents hse to bai nian..i tink i 1 yr go dere once nia..hahaha...den 2nd dae stay at hm le..cos i veri veri few relatives in spore ma..aniway..i collected ard 250 for my ang paoss...haha..thanks to all whu give mi an ang pao!!!lol...
ytd i went to bey hse..wah seh.. i lose money..reli reli veri sian la..bt nvm! i tell myself tmr will be betta..and todae!! i went to mic hse...haha..at 1st still gt win leh..bt in the end still lose...so i ytd tell myself todae will be betta oso no use...hahaha!!
i watched "xiao hai bu ben 2" with sx and casey todae...the show itself was nice la..its rather meaningful and touching..i tink its rather worth it la...so those whu haven watch..u r recommended to go n watch it!! it's nice! reli!!
=)))

siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn....
im so so so tired man...working everydae...den must still go to sch...sibei sian..lol..
nw i in iac...the lecturer blahing-blahing-blahing...simply waste of my time..haha!!
hmm..working nowadays..from last thurs onwards..work frm 6-10..and on sat and sun..nid to work frm 730am to 6pm!!! wan my life liao lo..plus mon to thurs nid to work frm 6-10 after sch...2 more daes to go!! ZzZzZzZz......
aniway guys..we willl be goin to mr roy hse on the 4th of feb..the time is still nt fixed yet...bt pls make urself available okay? lol...
sian..i didnt noe wad to write le...tink i shld stop here baaa..
will update soon!
=)))

okae...im gonna type tis blog in a super fast manner...i hope i can finish in 3 mins time...cos my fav show gonna start in 3 mins timeee..yeah!! tian ya xia yi is reli reli a veri gd show lo..tink its meaningful and nice!!!
lol..todae had a 2 hr lesson dae oni..oni com tool kit...we r required to make a 2 min speech todae..and i talked bt my info report..which is reasons for slimming down...i passed!! yeah!!!
actuali i dun reli bother hw much i gt...i jux dun wanna fail can le..have a pass can le..hahah.!!
den after lesson at 3..i met sx and we went to sp and look for cg...we went to canteen 4 and eat..standard de la...canteen 4 is the nearest to mrt station maa..lol!!
i ate hokkien mee todae...so so lo..the taste...den jy met us later..
the 4 of us den went to cck cos i wana cut my hair ma...bt the person nt free till 530..so went to plae pool 1st lo..i lost 2 match and paid 1.70 in total..hahah..
after tat i went to had my haircut...hmm..i was veri satisfied with it la..jux tat nw im rather sad tat my tail has been cut away...actuali i requested for it de..cos jy dey all sae nt nice..plus my sis oso sae nt nice..so i go cut lo!!! =(
rather sad de la..cos i kip so long le..lol..
bt i tink im slowly accepting the fact tat no tail can oso equal to handsome-ness!!!hahahah!!!
im late for the show by 2 mins!!
im chionging!!
cya!

haizzz...!!!!!!!!
siannnnnnnnnnn!!!
im so so so tired man...tis few daes...dunno wad i have been doin..bt im jux so tired...though i din work todae...bt i still wake up rather earli and den prepare to go to sch and meet up with eugene xinli etc for our iac project..tinking of it makes mi feel super duper sian liao..we did nth much so we had to reali chiong todae..plus our com tool kit project... = headache!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhh!!!! bt nvm..the group gt eugene = no worries!!haha..hes a great group member man..he did damn alot..i feel so bad for nt helping much..aniway..met him up at 1pm and we started doin..finish bt ard 330 and i met up with jy and sx at cck..cos sx wanna cut hair ma..den jy oso tinking whether he shld cut nt..actuali i oso decided to cut le...bt i kip tinking tat 2 weeks(cny period) later my hair grow back become a bush of grass le oso sian liao...so i tink i might be cutting next week ba..which is much nearer to cny.
anyway..the shop was filled with customers..soooooo mani ppl lo..tink erm...mayb theres ard 569.265 people inside the shop??!?!
hahaha..!! no la..i kua zhang oni!! hmm..bt aniway..jy gt his turn at ard 4.. den the hairdresser was bz again...den sx went in and ask her when she will be free..the person said 630 ma..which is still quite some time..so we decided to go and plae pool 1st...bt before tat im super hungry... so i went to LJS and ate up everything dere..the tables..chairs..the trays..and the cash register!!
hahahaha... den we went plae pool le!! okay...its nt pool le..we tried smth new todae..we played billard...i tout billard wld be ard the same as pool..bt im wrong...its so so so diff!!! bt luckily the girls working dere r friendly and gooD!! dey offered to teach us and to help us arrange the balls!! hey!!! thanks man( though u wun see tis..bt im touched) lol!!
smth happened..
bt sx gt his haircut..and colour too!!!
lol...
i tink i will jux end here baa..tmr have to work..tink im goin to run to slp...reli run!!
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